Pearl..

Pearl..

Sep 21, 2009

Take a bow..


Past 2 years since August07-09.. I don't even want to remember those deadly realities that I faced. Now they act as nightmares. Still, I want to thanks my past folks to make me stronger & so stronger that I have locked the doors of my heart & made myself o tough that now no emotions work on me. I just need to be loved. For I am tried spreading it & smiling all along. Yet on an optimist note I am moving, hoping to get my part of deserving happiness & love soon..

Through the journey I am really thankful to my sweet angel & her gang (Bacha Party) who helped me to move on from the dark phase. I also thank to my sweet loving caring Ma-Pa, coz of their support I realized my potential & took a stand to the situation.

I take a bow to my loving & caring friends, who've been acting like my perfect companions & mentoring me the right path throughout.

Having such wonderful people around, makes me feel that I have no regrets with my past.
God bless all!!

Jul 20, 2009

Move On..




















I've already been here an eternity..
I spend all day listening to Music on radio, looking around my room (Pune.. Enjoying the beautiful scenic view from top of the flat's terrace.

4m now on, whenever i feel low, I'll remember the Funfair. If I'd fallen asleep & suddenly woken up a roller coaster, what would i feel?
Well, I would feel trapped & sick, terrified of every bend, wanting to get off.

However, if I believe that the track is my destiny & that God is in charge of the machine, then the nightmare becomes something thrilling.

It becomes exactly what it is, a roller coaster, a safe, reliable toy, which'll eventually stop, but, while journey lasts, I must look @ the surrounding landscape & whoop with 'Excitement'..

Feb 14, 2009

REPLICA OF ME..

A soul having hidden sorrows.. unsaid words, carrying bag filled with lots of fun in her crystal clear heart..1ce again looking the depth of her eyes I felt she is back on her path.. Now she speaks happiness, spreads smile all over again!! sings joyous ride, Altogether she now rejoice in herself..Dance on her tunes.. Wish her all d life's best & happiness forever..God bless u my dear soul... "Happy Valentine Day.."

"Love yourself first,
Rest will automatically, fall in love with u!!"

Feb 2, 2009

ASSETS OF LIFE -


"V always count & keep weeping on things v lost. For a moment think about d 1 who have lost their family, not in accident or in any blast but they have been kicked out by their own children for whose growth they struggled & sacrificed their life's precious moments.. Now they live with their friends of same age group in a paradise called "OLD AGE HOMES."

Think about those who are unable to talk, hear or see or rather walk.. yes physically challenged people think about the one who r suffering from the pain of being counted as lady boy.. Do you think you carrying a heavier gloomy heart.. For a moment thank to Thee who has created you as a Perfect Human Being.. Thank to your parents who sacrificed their happiness to provide you with the best.. Thank yourself to possess these things as assets of your life.. God Bless You!!"

Feb 1, 2009

Somewhere in d middle>> Confusion..



"I used to think I'd the
answers to everything,
But now I know
that life
doesn't always
go my way,
feels like I am caught in the middle!
Thats when I realize
I am not a girl, not yet a woman
All I need is time, a moment i.e. m9..
But if u look at me closely
u will see it in my eyes
This girl will always find her WAY.."

Nov 25, 2008

GRACEFUL PRESENCE..



A fragrance that she left in everyone's life is a remarkable expression of the truth that she held in her eyes. She went silently through that phase.. A phase that paved a new route to her life.
" Her eyes r the reflection of the truth she have been to.. "

This is just a story.. An expression of a crystal clear heart that has load of hidden feelings that need words for its expression.

PE@RL, just like any other gal, she is simple, career oriented & helping in nature.

Her first innocent brushes with her love leave her heart-broken. At a tender age she becomes convinced that she will hardly find true love.

Her search for truth begins the moment she got selected in a management college. She was preparing herself to face a new challenge in the new environment.

D first day of induction & orientation in her college made her familiar to the college & its environment. She made new friends very quickly & sooner she became an attention seeker in her friend circle & among the faculty. Soon she melted many hearts by her gentle & lively nature.

She was going on a higher phase of her life. Then 1 day she met a handsome chap of her college, named Sam, who brought a fragrance to her life with blossoms of love & gentle smile. Sooner they became perfect couple in their campus. They started dating & had fun in freaking out with their friends. Everything was going on smooth pace. And the intimacy among them was getting deeper with the moving time. Now a time came when the course was about to complete & every 1 in the batch has to leave the gate seeking with their professional life.
Their friends got placed in different sectors. And the couple got a job in their desired company.

As per their commitments to 1 another, the time came when they have to tell about their relation to their respective family. They told their parents about their relation & luckily both the parents accepted their proposal happily & left the decision on them of when they want to get married. Gradually they were moving well in their love life & career path as well.

Later, Sam got transferred to another city away from Pearl. He was offered an international project for which he was sent away from his country & went far away from his love & family.
Both hearts wept on a long distance relationship. But they prepared themselves practically & strongly enough hoping to have a fruitful future ahead.
Days passed by when they were in regular touch with each other. Their workload gets burdened on their desk.

Gradually, the communication gaps came between the couple. But they had made commitments in their hearts & being loyal to 1 another they pursued their relevant jobs.
Slowly, the period went & 1 year blew in a busy manner. Both hearts got so busy in their proficient life that they hardly got time to stay connected.

One day, Sam informed his parents & his wanna be parents in laws about his returning back & giving surprise to his beloved sweetheart.
Both the families were very happy & elated on his return. He decided to pursue a beautiful happily married life with Pearl.
14th February, a day of love was decided by him to propose his love to get bonded with her forever.

Meantime Pearl's job demanded her tour to a rural place for a week. Unaware of the news of Sam's returning back she went on a tour with one of her colleague. She spent time in the villages conducting a survey with the farmers & lower segment people collecting some information related to the local moneylenders. She was getting success in the task assigned to her. She informed her family about the successful tour & her returning back to home. Sam waited impatiently, doing arrangements for her surprise.

12th February, a day came when Pearl was to get back to the pavilion & Sam awaited excitedly. Pearl took long hours to get back, 12th almost passed away but she didn't get back. No news came from her side & everybody got tensed. A strange feeling was covering everybody's heartbeats making the environment more tensed.

On 13th they got a call from the Pearl's company & the call made Sam to pack his bags & making uncertain promises to everybody he left for the village. A moment he entered the village a weird feeling came in his heart a feeling that made him feel pessimistic. After making an inquiry with the help of his beloved's photograph he went to the hotel where Pearl stayed for almost 5 days. The moment he asked for Pearl with the receptionist a strange expression of fear covered the face of the receptionist & he lied he don't know anything. Sam got a clue something wrong has happened. He went to the room boarded by Pearl. Later, a stranger came & took him to a local government hospital where he was shocked to see the critical condition of her love.

A doctor came & took him to his cabin & explained the case. He was shocked to know that her love victimized the gang rape.


He was speechless & in a same mode went to her bed unbelieving the truth, fighting within his soul he went nearer to his love. Refusing to accept the reality he just saw an innocent face of his Pearl. Slowly, she opened her eyes & saw her love standing besides her, she without giving any expressions hid herself & was unable to face him. Suppressing a weird feeling inside his heart, Sam played a role of a responsible human & took care of her.

Gradually, Pearl recovered & got discharged from the hospital but the soul within her was seeking the truth, a crystal clear heart saw a lost love in her lover's eyes. They kept silent for long hours in their meetings. Both hearts could feel the distance created in between them. Being together created both the hearts burdened. And a day came when Pearl asked her love to move on & carry on his life in his own way. Sam was not shocked to hear that, because somewhere inside him he was demanding the same thing. Both accepted their departure & moved on in their respective lives. Though, it was hard but some how a "MANAGER DEGREE HOLDERS" did manage to move away.

Hard time flew away; Pearl started accepting the dark core truth of her life, fighting within herself. Confronting her own demons, doing exactly the opposite of what she promised herself she would do.

With the passing time Sam got settled in his career life & got married to a girl of his parents choice. By the time Pearl recovered from her grief, engaged herself in a social work in an orphanage & passed her time seeing the cute smiles on the faces of children made her smile too that she lost far away.

Both hearts accepted the fate & carried their life in its manner.. God Bless All!!!

Jul 22, 2008

Serendipity>>Destiny>>Fate..



@ d moment, I am far too lonely to think about love,
but I have to believe that it will happen,
that I will find a job & that I am here coz!
I chose this fate..

"D Roller Coaster is my life;
Life is fast, dizzing game;
Life is a parachute jump;
Its taking chances;
Falling over & getting up again;
Its a mountaineering;
Its wanting to get to the very top
of yourself & to feel angry
& dissatisfied when
you don't manage it
& laugh at it.."